Inner Arguments & Standards of Success

“Hey my friend asked for your email. I hope it’s okay that I gave it to him. He has an opportunity that he wants to talk to you about and I think you’ll be really excited,” I read the text message from my friend Josh, curiosity piqued. Usually these kinds of messages are about writing opportunities. And normally I feel sort of disappointed because I always have to turn them […]

 

Adding to the Noise

Recently, there have been many-a-blog post regarding personal convictions flying around the old internet machine. Not to mention all the political garbage floating around cyberspace. This is not my take on any of those “issues.” Quite frankly, I don’t think grey areas of personal conviction are the problem. I think the problem is our culture’s obsession with telling people that they are wrong just because they believe something that we […]

 

Shut The Cup Up

“I’ll have a grande cold brew.” Standard order, standard day, though I did noticed that the holiday drinks were displayed on the Starbucks blackboard and the red cups were noticeably visible on the counter. Huh. Cool design. I mean, I probably would have chosen a more burgundy/red ombré, but to each their own.  A red cup is a red cup, am I right? Especially when your red cup is actually […]

 

Indecision, Netflix, and...I Don't Know?

I’d be lying if I said I haven’t been staring at a blank Word Document for the better part of an hour. I’ve asked myself probably twenty times what it is I should write about and I’ve been greeted with the same thought every time I search myself for the answer. I don’t know. The phrase “I don’t know” has been a common theme in my life as of late, […]

 

Losing Control of My Airplane

I hop onto my dad’s workshop counter amidst a meticulously organized mess of tools, spare airplane parts, and a few stray bolts and screws.  I mindlessly swipe a nail out from under my leg I inadvertently sat on. You never really get too old to watch your dad work, bare feet swinging off the counter, nose filling with co-mingling scents of oil, earth, cement, wood shavings, and musty reject furniture […]

 

Tow-Trucks & Therapists

I was 19 when I realized the way in which I was living life wasn’t really getting me anywhere. It seemed I was stuck in a repetitive cycle of making bad relational decisions and then having to crawl out of the hole I’d dug for myself. Give it a few months…repeat cycle. And to compound that issue I began to understand that I had a penchant for changing gears when […]

 

The Grace in Rejection

Sitting in a dorm room eight years ago I felt it. The anxious devastation that wells up in chest, the sick that lives in pit of stomach, the tears that threatened to blind, the lump in throat sure to block sweet air to lungs. Breathing came fast, individual breaths hitching as they came out torn. “But… why?” I cried soundlessly, the anger having long blazed out of me, leaving only […]

 

Learning to Grow Roots

The cold bit through my bare legs as I sat on the curb, a silhouetted form illuminated in the cold glow of the neighborhood street lamps. I had no idea why I was sitting outside in the dark, becoming one with the shadows. It felt ridiculous to be crying on a suburban curb, but a hidden subconscious pain had crept in, unwanted and uninvited. Despite the embarrassment I felt, an […]

 

When You Know, You Just Know

“He’s the one. I just know it!” my friend exclaimed over lunch. I felt my jaw begin to clench, noticing how my teeth were beginning to grind at such a radical statement. I almost snorted, so it was probably for the best that my instinctual response was trapped behind a case of lock-jaw. I chose my next words carefully, trying not to choke on my sandwich, “But…haven’t you guys only […]

 

Hitting Backspace

I walked along the bike trail by my parents’ house, purposely kicking up fallen October leaves with every step. Each stride released the spicy scent of autumn, reminding me why I love this season in the Midwest so much. The crunch of the leaves, the rich golden colors, the prematurely fading twilight. The feeling that anything and everything could change at any given moment. I sighed, shoving my hands into […]