Inner Arguments & Standards of Success

“Hey my friend asked for your email. I hope it’s okay that I gave it to him. He has an opportunity that he wants to talk to you about and I think you’ll be really excited,” I read the text message from my friend Josh, curiosity piqued. Usually these kinds of messages are about writing opportunities. And normally I feel sort of disappointed because I always have to turn them […]

 

So, You're Going to Change the World?

I’m going to change the world. There was a point in time when I threw that sentence around a lot, especially in the social media spheres. And I am not alone. It has become somewhat of an impassioned battle cry. We are the generation of change, charity, awareness, and empathy; this is an incredible thing.  We desire to make an impact, to leave behind us a trail of good deeds, or to […]

 

Indecision, Netflix, and...I Don't Know?

I’d be lying if I said I haven’t been staring at a blank Word Document for the better part of an hour. I’ve asked myself probably twenty times what it is I should write about and I’ve been greeted with the same thought every time I search myself for the answer. I don’t know. The phrase “I don’t know” has been a common theme in my life as of late, […]

 

The Runaway Season

I can measure my adult life in taped cardboard boxes and crumpled plane tickets. But truth be told, I still don’t have any idea where I will end up. I have family on one coast, friends that feel like family on the other, attended college in one state, lived on a different continent, and I continually feel a keen curiosity and yearning for states and countries I’ve never even visited. […]

 

Losing Control of My Airplane

I hop onto my dad’s workshop counter amidst a meticulously organized mess of tools, spare airplane parts, and a few stray bolts and screws.  I mindlessly swipe a nail out from under my leg I inadvertently sat on. You never really get too old to watch your dad work, bare feet swinging off the counter, nose filling with co-mingling scents of oil, earth, cement, wood shavings, and musty reject furniture […]

 

The Grace in Rejection

Sitting in a dorm room eight years ago I felt it. The anxious devastation that wells up in chest, the sick that lives in pit of stomach, the tears that threatened to blind, the lump in throat sure to block sweet air to lungs. Breathing came fast, individual breaths hitching as they came out torn. “But… why?” I cried soundlessly, the anger having long blazed out of me, leaving only […]

 

Learning to Grow Roots

The cold bit through my bare legs as I sat on the curb, a silhouetted form illuminated in the cold glow of the neighborhood street lamps. I had no idea why I was sitting outside in the dark, becoming one with the shadows. It felt ridiculous to be crying on a suburban curb, but a hidden subconscious pain had crept in, unwanted and uninvited. Despite the embarrassment I felt, an […]

 

A Slammed Door

Back in June 2014 I wrote an article entitled, “Three-Legged Dogs in The Land of Want”. If you didn’t read it, it detailed my quest to find an (affordable & cheaper) apartment. I live in Southern California, so that did not at all go as I had hoped. I was bummed, and then later had to get over it, accepting that God must have wanted me to stay-put for the […]

 

Unwrapping Gifts Too Soon

During the last 8-ish years that I lived with my mom, I always knew exactly what gifts I would be receiving on Christmas morning. I knew because I unwrapped those gifts way before Christmas day. And then I would wrap them back. I could never wait until Christmas morning to know what those boxes held, and I would spend days perfecting my surprised face. Side note to my mother who is […]

 

Learning to Let Go

I had a pair of moccasins that I wore all through college.  I loved them.  They were my “sole” mate (sorry for the dad-joke). I wore them to the beach, I wore them hiking, I wore them places I probably shouldn’t have because unlike the moccasins Native Americans made, these were fake leather or suede, or whatever they actually were, and not at all weather proof. They eventually started to […]