Escaping Growth

There is something so magnificent about escaping. Escaping the crappy day we had, escaping bad company, escaping our own relentless thoughts, escaping the growth that is required of us in an uncomfortable season. I’m actually *awesome* at this. And you can pick your poison too. Some escape difficulties by staying distracted through their phones, music, and constant noise. While others keep so busy between work and friends that they could […]

 

Playing the Victim

My 20s haven’t exactly gone the way I anticipated they would. Shocker. The expectations we carry in life are often thwarted. My timelines don’t always play out. Teleportation still isn’t a thing (though I maintain that if they can fax a paper, they can fax a person). Major life milestones aren’t always met. Some of it is my fault. Some of it is outside of my control. And some of […]

 

Adding to the Noise

Recently, there have been many-a-blog post regarding personal convictions flying around the old internet machine. Not to mention all the political garbage floating around cyberspace. This is not my take on any of those “issues.” Quite frankly, I don’t think grey areas of personal conviction are the problem. I think the problem is our culture’s obsession with telling people that they are wrong just because they believe something that we […]

 

So, You're Going to Change the World?

I’m going to change the world. There was a point in time when I threw that sentence around a lot, especially in the social media spheres. And I am not alone. It has become somewhat of an impassioned battle cry. We are the generation of change, charity, awareness, and empathy; this is an incredible thing.  We desire to make an impact, to leave behind us a trail of good deeds, or to […]

 

Indecision, Netflix, and...I Don't Know?

I’d be lying if I said I haven’t been staring at a blank Word Document for the better part of an hour. I’ve asked myself probably twenty times what it is I should write about and I’ve been greeted with the same thought every time I search myself for the answer. I don’t know. The phrase “I don’t know” has been a common theme in my life as of late, […]

 

Freezing the Emotional Process

Sometimes I feel the words underneath the surface and I know. I need a keyboard, or a pen. I need to write. Most of the time I don’t even know what words will come tumbling forth, but I can feel them floating to the surface beneath my skin; a long-forgotten splinter finally working its way out. I tap away at the keys. Scratching off the surface, like a gambler scratching […]

 

Losing Control of My Airplane

I hop onto my dad’s workshop counter amidst a meticulously organized mess of tools, spare airplane parts, and a few stray bolts and screws.  I mindlessly swipe a nail out from under my leg I inadvertently sat on. You never really get too old to watch your dad work, bare feet swinging off the counter, nose filling with co-mingling scents of oil, earth, cement, wood shavings, and musty reject furniture […]

 

The Grace in Rejection

Sitting in a dorm room eight years ago I felt it. The anxious devastation that wells up in chest, the sick that lives in pit of stomach, the tears that threatened to blind, the lump in throat sure to block sweet air to lungs. Breathing came fast, individual breaths hitching as they came out torn. “But… why?” I cried soundlessly, the anger having long blazed out of me, leaving only […]