How does one sum up an entire year?

365 days. Or close to it.

Sometimes you can’t. Sometimes you must let what was…just be. You must turn the page, and step into what is now here. Embracing, what is before you and learning from what is behind you.

That’s where I’m at.

For those of you who are new to the She Has Worth page, welcome! For those who have been patiently waiting for this relaunch for nearly a year, thank you for sticking with us. It blesses me so intensely that you continued to encourage the She Has Worth organization even when there was no website to be found.

As I’m sitting here attempting to write this rebirthing article to you, my heart is unexplainably pounding. The kind of thudding that only happens after you’ve run a race or before you give a speech. I am nervous. I am excited. I might have had too much caffeine, but then I might be experiencing a heart attack. I’ve had to stop in the middle of this article several times already just to breathe.

My heart is at a breaking point, thumping wildly, because I believe in this project, in those who are involved, and I believe in the women (and men) who are searching and have somehow found themselves on this webpage. For me, it’s been a long journey to get to this place.

If I am being honest, 2012 was one of my hardest years emotionally, with 2013 being mostly a heart healing time. Life doesn’t always go the way you picture it in your head. People often do not act the way you think they will. Plans that were made sometimes fall apart. This is life. This is the art of living. It is messy and sometimes it hurts.  Although at times it is maddening and confusing, life still remains beautiful.

What I have learned from the past year of being stretched and pruned is that God is always working a million different angles behind the scenes, the vast majority of which we will never know. We each get a limited window, our own perspective into what is going on around us and before us. But every day we are faced with the question, “Will you trust me?” whispered in our ear by God. Will I? Will I trust Him even when my life’s circumstances suddenly do not make sense? Will I trust Him when things feel like they are spiraling out of control? Will I trust Him when events do not happen in MY timing? Do I trust that in storms and in celebrations He has my best interests at heart?

One thought that I have not been able to shake is, “He makes beautiful things out of dust” (Is. 61:3). I have nothing to offer. I do not have all the answers and I am far from perfect in anything.

But He makes beautiful things out of the dust, soot, and ash of our lives. He does what we never could…He makes sense out of it all when we offer it to Him.

And ultimately, that’s what She Has Worth is about. It’s about offering our mess to God and knowing that no matter what dirt we are sitting in that God is making it beautiful. She Has Worth is about proclaiming that everyone’s story has a redemption point.

She Has Worth is about being known by our Creator and sowing our identity in Him so that when the rest of the world goes to crap and the castles we have built begin to crumble, our hope is not lost. We are not directionless. We are not loveless. We are still known intimately and celebrated most enthusiastically by a Savior who died and then defeated death to plant our feet on a firm foundation.

In the shockwaves of hurt we are found in Him. In the shards of broken dreams we are restored by Him. Whether the sun is shining and the world is just as you planned, or all has been flipped upside down… He is where our identities can be found.

I don’t think any of us would pretend for a minute we hold all the secrets to life and happiness. But I do know that God designed us to live in community, championing one another, celebrating together… supporting and encouraging in every season.

We all have a story to tell. We all have hurts that are still healing and lessons that are still being learned. We are not always great at believing in ourselves and seeing the footprints of grace in our own stories…

So can we just do it together?

Coleen York

Coleen York is the founder and editor of She Has Worth. She works as a freelance copywriter and editor, so feel free to hire her so she has employment. Additionally, she enjoys being outside, traveling, dinosaurs, art, Oreos, slurpees, and coffee (but not all together, that would probably be gross). Read more about Coleen in the "Our Team" section of She Has Worth.

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