Patience with the Process

I swirled my lukewarm coffee in its glass, glancing out the two-story window into the neighborhood below. Was it raining? It certainly didn’t look like the kind of weather I had grown accustomed to in Southern California. Even if it wasn’t raining, it was fogging. Close enough. I plopped unceremoniously into my desk chair and began clicking a pen without rhythm or reason. I had about a million things I […]

 

Escaping Growth

There is something so magnificent about escaping. Escaping the crappy day we had, escaping bad company, escaping our own relentless thoughts, escaping the growth that is required of us in an uncomfortable season. I’m actually *awesome* at this. And you can pick your poison too. Some escape difficulties by staying distracted through their phones, music, and constant noise. While others keep so busy between work and friends that they could […]

 

Inner Arguments & Standards of Success

“Hey my friend asked for your email. I hope it’s okay that I gave it to him. He has an opportunity that he wants to talk to you about and I think you’ll be really excited,” I read the text message from my friend Josh, curiosity piqued. Usually these kinds of messages are about writing opportunities. And normally I feel sort of disappointed because I always have to turn them […]

 

The Problem of Regret

Glancing in the rearview mirror, I checked my reflection one more time. This was probably as good as it was going to get. I took a deep breath and headed inside the fancy office building, the click-clacking of my knock-off pumps occasionally sticking in the uneven pavement. During the interview, I said what came naturally, careful to be authentic, but careful to “sell” my writing—as is indicative of job interviews. […]

 

What I Said I Would

“So, how’s that book coming along?” I grit my teeth and close my eyes, dreading the interaction that’s about to take place. “Oh…you know. It’s coming. Slow, but that’s progress for ya.” “How many pages do you have?” Curse you friend who knows I am avoiding this question. “Like 8. I’m at 8 pages. But I have an outline. And I’ve just been really busy lately with work,” I sputter, […]

 

Playing the Victim

My 20s haven’t exactly gone the way I anticipated they would. Shocker. The expectations we carry in life are often thwarted. My timelines don’t always play out. Teleportation still isn’t a thing (though I maintain that if they can fax a paper, they can fax a person). Major life milestones aren’t always met. Some of it is my fault. Some of it is outside of my control. And some of […]